Bug,

As your lying next to me, I can't help but want to wake you up just so I can see your smile. But I know that i'll regret it because its 2:08 in the morning. I still can't sleep without checking on your every 10 minutes. You giggled for me today, and it was breath taking. You cried right after because I squeeled so loud and it scared you, but regardless it happen. You're growing up so much and it breaks my heart that in a few short weeks, i'll have to return to work and you'll have to go to the baby sitters, and i'll be away from you for 8 hours. I can barely go 1 whole hour without missing you like crazy.  No one is gonna understand your cries, or that you like to sniff your feet. I'm afraid you're not going to get the attention you need if you go to some daycare. I love you so much that I don't want just "somebody" watching you. I want Daddy or I to be that one. Or some relatively close. But bills have to be paid and we need light to see you at night, so someone has to work . Boo.  You still refuse to sleep anywhere other than your swing, couch or our bed.And your inches away from full on sucking on your thumb. It's so cute to chew on your fist. You can finally hold up your head pretty good, which is such a relief and you did so good with 2 month shots! You love your dad so much it amazes me. That you know the difference between us. You talk to him more than you talk to anyone else! You instantly smile when you see him. It melts my heart to see you guys playing around on the floor and it makes me even more excited for the future and when you get bigger. Well love, i'm sure when i try to lay down you'll wake up for your next feeding, either way I love you so much.  Love Mom.

Daddy tickling your ear

Month 2

Today you are 2 months! I honestly feel like you should be at least 4 or 5, but that's because I spend most of my time with you. You are my best friend. You're smile can turn my whole day around. Lately you've been super cranky, but thats okay, because it gives mommy a reason to let you fall asleep on my chest all day. (:


We have successfully breast feed for 2 months now which is a HUGE accomplishment for us! You and I both know it was hard at first but we stuck with it, and man it sure is a lot better for both of us a 4am when you wake up starving.

 You still hate tummy time, but the easter bunny brought you a new play gym with toys that hang above you and that thing keeps you busy for a good bit.

I take so many pictures of you it's kinda ridculous. We have over 1,000 now. I get a little carried away but I want to make sure that I have a picture for everyday at least and for every time you do something funny or insanely cute...which is obviously everyday.

You're freaking huge..and I mean that in a 12lb. 10 oz way. I think you're going to have blue eyes, and I know they say that babies eyes don't change until they are six months but they are changing into an even more beautiful blue every day.

We have a huge John Lennon poster in our living room and that poster seems to calm you down even when I can't get through to you. That and Florence and the machine.

My favorite things that you do though is when your nursing and you look up at me and try to talk. It makes my heart melt into a big mushy pile of goo. I can't help but want to hold you tight and never let go.

Well bug, I'm promise that i'll keep up with this as much as you'll let me. I love you so much and I know I tell you this every day but you mean so much to me. You're everything I have ever wanted and I promise that no matter what I will always have the patience and love to last you the rest of your life

Love Mommy

Month 1

(Mommy is playing catch up!) 

Today you are five weeks! You can almost hold your head up. You hate tummy time. And god forbid you wake up hungry. You cry until you can't breathe. You like baths, until it's time to get out. You coo and cah. And your smile is the most beautiful things i have ever seen. Your sleep schedule is always outta wack but you at least give mommy and daddy three- four hours in the middle of the night. You weigh 10.4 oz. Sometimes you cry in your sleep. It's the saddest thing i've ever seen. You look so much like daddy it's unreal. I wish that you liked me as much as you like him. You cry a lot for me. I know you love me, but daddy seems to have the magic touch.